" Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and though the Christmas tree aches a bit empty, even though there are no grapes on the vine and no struggle-free days, even though the olive crop fails, even though I fail, even though so much fails--even now I will rejoice in the Lord."
The Greatest Gift.Ann Voskam
I fail. I am not the mom, the wife, the daughter, the friend, the servant of the most High that I ache to be, that I ought to be, that they long for me to be.
I do not use my abilities and gifts. And if I do, the motivation is suspect. The outcome and quality miss the mark.
But worse than not doing, I am not. Though the tug of the human heart is to beI AM--the one in control that makes things (and oursselves) happen, the truth that is that I AM - not. But that is the lesson to be learned. We are not the I AM. He is.
Life is not about easy. It's about Him. His glory. and He cares for us.