So when things are dark. It may be circumstances. It may be hormones, or mental illness. It may be that time of the year that brings darkness to your heart.
Recently, I was sad. I didn't know why, then was reminded of the significance of that date. But it spiraled from there. Someone in my life didn't respond as I'd hoped, and I was left feeling deserted. sad. alone. and like the circumstances were hopeless.
I've been a believer for a long time. I know better. My inbox was inundated with encouraging posts and blogs. I knew they were true. I reread things on this blog! But my heart remained torn, the tears kept coming. The pain beyond tears tore my heart for a week. And worse yet, a situation that I had looked forward to and longed for was tainted by unexpected obligations and duties that others should have carried out, but didn't.
Truly, I tried to surround myself with music and words from the Word. My heart cried out to God in psalm-like fashion. But the sadness would not leave.
Then the lifting came-in sharing the joy of others, listening to others that I loved laugh. And smiling to myself. And remembering the work that God was doing in their lives to bring about such a delightful sound.
Remember. God tells us to remember. He tells us to rejoice. I failed in this this go-round, but I suspect that unless the Father calls me home, I will have another opportunity and soon. So I need to ask forgiveness, and purpose in my heart to, by grace, be obedient next time.
What has helped rise your heart when walking through darkness?